I want to admit something to all of you: Sometimes I still cry because of how people treated me when I was obese. Because I stuffed all of my “negative” emotions deep inside my entire life, it’s going to take some time to fully release them. I’m working on it, however, and making tremendous progress with healing myself on all levels. I’m not telling you these things so you’ll feel sorry for me, however. I’m telling you because I am thankful for all the pain I endured. It shaped me (in more ways than just my physical appearance) into the person I am today.
Even though it sounds strange, and somehow wrong to feel this way, I’m thankful that I was obese. I’m thankful for all of the experiences during my life, even the extremely painful, traumatic ones. Maybe if I was a different kind of person I would wish that those things didn’t happen to me. However, I am using those experiences in positive ways. They’ve helped me understand people even better, and to understand myself on a deeper level, as well. When people reach out to me it’s not only because I’m an approachable person, it’s because they sense that I understand them–and they’re right. I DO understand them. I understand you. My experiences, coupled with my gift of empathy, help me relate to you in a way that maybe not everyone else is able to do.
When you share your sorrows with me, I feel them, too. When you ask for help, I feel your desperate desire to find a thread of hope to keep you from falling into the deep pit that you feel will swallow you up. When you ask for advice, I know you are trying to help yourself and you are searching for knowledge to be shared that you can possibly use for yourself. When you tell me you don’t know why you have contacted me and shared so much about yourself, I feel your depression and loneliness. And when you share your triumphs, both small and large, I am overjoyed with you! That’s the beauty of being an empath: I can feel not only your pain and suffering, I can share in your joy as well!
I love being the person I am. I love that I can relate to and understand so many of you on different levels. I love that you share yourselves with me, as much as I do myself with you. I am thankful for all that I’ve been through and I’m thankful that you have found me, have reached out and connected with me. Together we can grow stronger–and in doing so we can help even more individuals who haven’t even started their search for something better, yet.
Today, and every other day, I am filled with gratitude for so very much. Thank you for being here with me on my journey, and for inviting me to share some of your journey with you.
I love all of you,